Fibroid

2023

Performance

Handmade costume

In 2017, I was diagnosed with a fibroid in my uterus. Ever since that, the fantasy of an active giant fibroid started to happen on my mind now and again. This performance is a return to that traumatic experience of mine as well as a relief. It takes place in the woods. 

The handmade costume is a blow-up version of the fibroid I took out during my surgery in 2017. Fabric manipulation methods such as dying, stitching, pleating, and bleaching are used to accomplish the surface of this costume. The process of making it from raw materials is also a journey of recovery. It is an attempt to gain control of my own body. 

When I perform with this costume, my vision is limited due to it covering my upper body. I become scared to take steps forward. On the other hand, this ‘giant fibroid’ also creates a shelter for me. A complicated feeling of uncertainty and safety echoes my previous experience and allows me to be aware of my own body.